But seriously….where??
Okay…so I used to blog ALL the time, about my life, travels, things I loved. And then I got pregnant…AND incredibly sick so blogging just didn’t seem all that fun anymore (maybe because my head was in the toilet most days?). THEN I had a baby…and blogging was the last thing on my mind (I had a new little one to occupy my time). Well I am NOT pregnant anymore, and my sweet sweet baby is already 4 months, and for the first time (in a long time) I feel up to blogging again!! yippppeeeee! I have SO much to share its almost overwhelming.
Well first off let me introduce you to the most wonderful, beautiful and absolutely most precious thing in our lives…
Rowen!!
Right now he is 4 months old….oh gosh how we adore him!!
So as I was talking to someone the other day, about labor, delivery and the whole shebang. I realized that I was starting to forget! The bad, the good and everything in between. This was sad, and since I absolutely FAIL at keeping a journal, I wanted to write down a few things that I want to remember.
(a friend of mine did it this way, and I thought it was perfect)
THE BAD:
-Getting induced and having to be in the hospital for 17 hours without ANY contractions.
-My sweet little man had an irregular heart rate and so I had to stay in the same position for hours….cramp city!
-having to unhook a million cords and things to get up to go pee (which was pretty much every 5 min)
-Shaking uncontrollably from the pain!
-Shaking so badly that I could barley hold still for the epidural.
-Having the epidural work on only half my body (still shaking from the pain)
-Getting more medicine that COMPLETELY numbed the other half of my body
-then just shaking because of all the meds
-Throwing up even when I ate one tiny ice chip
-having to throw up on my side into a small dish, and then getting it in my hair
-pushing so hard I thought my head was going to explode.
-having to support my dead leg while pushing
-gasping for air in my oxygen mask
-feeling so hungry, weak and exhausted I wasn’t sure I could do it anymore
-getting told about a thousand times “ONE more push, he is almost here!”
-Getting woken up from sleep to have my blood pressure checked
-having him taken from me for the first time to get his shots
-feeling like if I got out of bed and walked my lower half might explode
-being so exhausted that I feel I might throw up, but not being able to sleep because I am feeding him so much
-feeling scared and unsure if I even know what to do
THE GREAT:
-getting to watch HGTV non stop!
-Eating a really yummy subway sandwich before it all began(yes I was craving it and it was my last meal for awhile)
-having good nurses (all extremely different)
-Getting to shower for the first time after giving birth
-having my wonderful friends and family come and visit us in the hospital
-getting to lounge around in a hospital gown
-having a room all to ourselves
-ice packs and tucks (you know what I mean!)
-having Austin there to help me
-getting to talk to my mom and sister for the first time
-having Austin sleep at the hospital every night
-getting to go home
-watching how carful and slow Austin drove on the way home from the hospital
THE WONDERFUL:
-seeing his tiny head for the first time
-hearing his healthy cry
-listening to the excitement and love in Austin’s voice as I was pushing
-hearing Austin almost explode from excitement once he saw the head
-Having so many wonderful nurses encouraging me along
-My wonderful doctor
-Austin being so patient and loving with me…giving me massages, getting things for me, asking questions.
-listening to him exclaim “He is SO cute, I thought newborns were supposed to be ugly….he is SO SO cute!!”
-Having my sweet baby boy resting skin to skin against my body
-Watching him suck on his tiny hand
-Seeing his beautiful face
-Knowing that he was mine forever, and that he depended on me to take care of him
-Watching Austin care for him, and look at him with so much love
-crying after he came back from his first shot, and feeling how much I want to love and protect him
-Eating a sandwich right after the delivery and for the first time in 9 months not feeling nauseous!
-having my sweet Rowen snuggled up close to me.
-feeding him
-waking up and looking over at him sleeping
-Austin and I saying back and forth how much we love him, and how cute he is and never getting tired of saying it
-knowing that everything was worth it
-feeling absolute pure and perfect love for my son
